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i never had any intention to write about...this. maybe it's because i don't want people's pity. maybe it's because i resent our situation too much. maybe it's because i'm afraid people will not understand and laugh. or maybe it's because i'm vain - utterly and lethally proud - and i don't want people to think any less of me. because i already DO feel kind of less, and i hate it.

i realize now that i should've written about it a long time ago. i also realize that i have really, really stupid ideas some of the time.

hello, i'm jezzah and we're really very poor. i'm trying my best to function as best as i can, and i'm trying to overcome my baser, more materialistic and whiny nature. i think i really am getting stronger, and i hope to someday find meaning in all this mess.

i hope you guys a meaningful christmas!

 

When people ask me what programs I've been tuning to lately, I always tell them solemnly that I have lost interest in watching TV. It makes me feel cool, I suppose. Plus it goes well with this deep and sensitive writer-slash-artist persona I've adapted. So yeah, TV? Nah, thanks, me has teh books and canvasses and we would like to be alone.

But for some warped, warped reason, I have been catching glances of Pinoy Big Brother on a fairly regular basis, enough for me to conclude that that Baron Geisler is reaching unimaginable heights with his poseurness. Bad boy of the house, my ass. Two bottles of beer and you're that uninhibited? Kupal ka lang. And my gulay, his 'they're all ganging up on me, nobody loves me,' soliloquy is just too damn embarrasing, I'm amazed he was able to say all that without expiring on spot.

Well, anyway, at least he's gone from the house now.  Impressionable people are watching this program, so practically it's a moral obligation to remove that pathetic excuse for a human being from public view. Keep him locked in a dark crevice somewhere together with self help books until he realizes that he'll do himself and the humanity great service by seeing the world from outside his head.

Anyway, this is quite late, but what the hey, MERRY CHRISTMAS! I also think a little plagiarism is in order to greet the looming new year:

Sabi sa feng shui swerte daw 2008 for those born in the Year of the Dragon. Hah, hope so. :)